All About Insanity, Stupidity and Tequilla
Freitag, Februar 24, 2006
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well... here i am... surprisingly whole and alive. you would say "surprisingly" too, if u'd known what i've been through. three months of non-stop emotion turmoil. I do understand the concept of, you know, the whole "it's a big ferris wheel, once u're up and once u're down" thing. but i've just never been on a ferris wheel that goes full speed! so i guess it's excusable to say that i had to adjust a little.
yea, three months. it was tough. really tough. but i guess once u've calmed down and accept the things, u start to see everything else in a different way. and somehow, u just make peace with the fact that u just cant change those things. in return, u'll find another way that leads u to a whole new place that u think might just be the right place for u.
it is difficult, especially when u've lived and believed in that old place for too long, u even started to believe that u really did belong there. but the first step is always difficult and challenging. once u've taken that step, u'll find it easier to take the next and find it even easier not to look back.
and after a while, u'll reach a point where u become so sick of the past that u dun even want to be a part of it anymore. u dun even want to talk or hear about it. it's true that we have to learn from the past. and that i do, but that doesnt mean that u have to keep the past with u.
i have reached that point. the point where i just throw away all the past, and put it where it should be: behind - no matter how wonderful the past could be; and also where i start accepting and making peace with the things i cannot change. i wouldn't say that that made me a better person. but i think i may have just discovered a new layer of me and perhaps it's a good thing. i dunno... time will tell.
-rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
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