All About Insanity, Stupidity and Tequilla
Samstag, Juli 30, 2005
Insomnia
it's 2.51 am
my eyes are heavy
but i just cant close them
and be where i want to be
no matter
being where i want to be
cant take me to where i really want to be anyway
so here i go again
kneeling down and communicating
to the only one who'll hear me out
asking Him to watch over the people that mean the world to me
and the faces come
then the memories
then the familiar drifting away
and i find myself going back in time
re-living the moments
the laughs
the fun
the love
the betrayal
the deception
the pain
and im back here
hating every thought
and not able to shut my eyes
for a little slumber
-rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
at 2:51:00 AM |
Dienstag, Juli 26, 2005
24 - A Birthday Resolution
isn't it funny?
when you were younger
you so wish that you were older
and once you get to the age that you want
you suddenly want to turn back the time
and go back to where u were
this year's birthday
where i turned 24
was definitely different from the other birthdays
from the others i've had
weird in a way, if you'd like
but i wouldn't say i didn't learn anything from it
i did learn a little bit more of myself
and my true feelings
and i did notice the difference
from now and then
up to last year
i still get trashed like crazy on my birthday
it was more like as if i was trying to make my life shorter
on the day i was born
by getting dead-bummed
in other words:
party 'till i drop, literally
and this year
not only i stayed sober
but i didnt have the slightest intention to go out and party
instead i stayed at home
all alone
not that i didnt want to be with my friends
but i only wanted to have a peace on my own
and to think
and like i said, or rather wrote
i did learn somethings
pretty "productive" birthday this year
:)
-rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
at 11:59:00 PM |
Montag, Juli 25, 2005
Pre-Birthday Blues
one and a half hours before my birthday
and im feeling blue
*sigh*
-rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
at 10:06:00 PM |
Freitag, Juli 22, 2005
so many things going on in my mind right now can't even sort them one by one -rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
at 1:15:00 PM |
Dienstag, Juli 12, 2005
I think I just did something stupid
-rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
at 9:03:00 PM |
Dienstag, Juli 05, 2005
Poor GPN
"kok jadi kacau bgini????????
everybudy's gone...ntar gpn gmana"
kok jadi kacau begini?????
KOK JADI KACAU BEGINI????
it's been chaotic since months now!!!!!
glad that they've finally come around!
OPEN YOUR FREAKING EYES!!!!!!!
since when do they care about gpn?
since when do they even THINK about gpn?
isn't getting on stage and be seen their only purpose?
it's good that they want to get on stage
it's good that they have the proper self-confidence to do that
just as long as they don't put the pressure on me or ilka
which is exactly what they have been doing
they make it look like it's our OBLIGATION to:
- teach them
- prepare their costumes FOR them and that, WITHOUT them
- get THEM ready
- and clean up after them while they simply dump their worn and smelly costume on the table and leave
and all this with not a bit of a little thank-you
well...
it's nice to have your own little servants
but look somewhere else
cuz im NOT fvcking one!!!!!!!!
"sie sind auch erst schüler und nicht schon was 'großes' nur weil sie älter sind heißt es nicht gleich dass sie uns herumkommandieren müssen ich mag das einfach nicht..deswegen hasse ich es jz gpn zu kommen.."
translated to english will be:
"they are also only pupils and nothing big. being older than us doesn't mean they can command us around. i just don't like it, that's why i hate coming to gpn practises"
well, dear girl...
first, i am NOT a pupil
neither is ilka
im working
and ilka is a STUDENT
u should buy a new dictionary
pupil is a person who goes to school
whereas student is a person who goes to a college / university
and a working person is called an employee
you dumb-4ss b|tch
coming to practise and giving us a peck on each cheek and hugging us
like as if you were our best friend in the whole wide world
and u talk like this behind our backs???
u'd better be more careful with whom u're talking
and second....!
we have NEVER commanded you to do anything
we have always been asking what you would like to dance
or if you want to perform or not
if you say yes, than it's your own decision
if you don't want to, then say no
don't say yes, when you don't want to
and tell other people that we are commanding you to do things!
and if you hate it so much
why the hell do you bother coming at all???
nobody's forcing you to come
if you don't want to show up
then the hell DON'T!!!
"und jetzt aufeinmal schreibt revie eine mail dass sie pause machen will..sie glaubt einfach sie sei das beste an gpn"
translated to english:
"and now revie came up with this email saying she wants to take a break, she thinks she's the best thing in gpn"
girl,
you are freaking 14 (or even 13) years old
you are SO messed up!!!!
before you even say bad things about my decision,
THINK (!!!!!!!) why i even want to take a break
before our teacher left
she gave the four of us (bianca, asti, ilka and me) the responsibility over gpn
YOU guys aren't exactly making our lives easier
you're making it worst and making the responsibility even heavier
do you EVER bother helping us around?
think before you talk, girl
THINK!!!!!
and think with your brain
not with your butt!
you guys think that im only making it up
that the quality of your dancing is going down the drain
the ppl from the embassy have come to me and told it to my face
ppl from the indonesian community came to me and told me
this is not a figment of my imagination
it is the truth
and when i say it to you
you don't believe me
and talk behind my backs that i'm mean and that i'm a liar
because you think that you've given all your best
well, not doing what we teach you
and not practicing seriously
are not exactly what we call giving all your best!!!!!
please kids....
THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
put yourself in my position
and THINK!!!!!!!!!!!
-rv
posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy
at 5:31:00 PM |
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