All About Insanity, Stupidity and Tequilla

Donnerstag, März 15, 2001

*sigh* i'm not good... i'm bad... mmm, how else can i express it? gue geregetan banget deh! emang yah... cowok itu tidak bisa dipercaya! no offense guys.... but i think this species (i refer to the boys) do nothing but lie, ngumbar janji (bahasa inggrisnya apa sih? hehe), and hurt my species... (which will be the gurls then...) once we give everything to this species, and they know it, they'll take advantage of us... damn! and my species, just keep doing it even if they're hurt for the zillionth time. GILAAAAA!!!!! gue dibohongin!!!!!! gue dibohongin telak banget!!!! it hit me right there. and that's it... i'm gonna try to forget abt it (maybe i should say him), but it isn't that easy. and maybe what my friends say is right... it's not for real... but.. *sigh* yea, i guess this is the outcome of believing someone too much and taking everything to heart. i should have known rite from the beginning that i shouldn't 'use my heart' in this kind of things. now everything's too late. my feelings for this guy has grown and it's become too complex. i dun think i can do it tho'... what am i gonna say when i see him? cuz he has no idea at all about this. i can't just simply say: hey, u hurt me. let's forget abt it. i wanna forget u. *lol* i can't even tell him that i like him!! that it's not just a 'friend' kinda feeling... it's more than that. oh, god... akung, maafin aku. aku terlalu make perasaan. i'm sooo sorry. aku tau kalo aku sekarang bilang aku masih sayang kamu, kamu nggak akan percaya. tapi aku bener2 sayang kamu. aku sayang kamu. tapi aku salah, kung. aku terlalu make perasaan aku. yang seharusnya aku nggak begitu. aku dengan bodohnya make perasaan aku. maafin aku ya, kung? maafin aku.... aku nggak bisa nulis gini tanpa harus feeling guilty sama kamu... rasa bersalah aku numpuk, kung... NUMPUK.aku nggak tau musti gimana... DAMN!!!!!!!!!

posted by Apink a.k.a. Bubbzy at 9:06:01 PM |